I’ve been rewriting an adult book I wrote while I was pregnant with Joe. It was actually the first adult book I managed to finish and I was pleased with it… sort of. I was pleased that I’d finally managed to finish an adult book and I like the characters and the story, but somehow it didn’t feel quite like me.
So I started rewriting it and trying to make it more me and instead I feel rather… meh. I know this could well be a stage – I’m at 20,000 words, which is where a lot of writers apparently decide that the book is crapulous – but I worry about pushing on to 80,000+ and then finding I just don’t like it. It seems like a lot of time to waste.
Plus since I’ve tried and failed to write adult fiction quite a few times, I wonder if I should just give up and stick to YA. I love writing teen fiction and I definitely find it easier and more fun, so why persevere with the adult stuff? Part of me just doesn’t want to give up on it. Between the four or five books I’ve written or half-written, I’ve probably got around a quarter of a million words. Surely some of them are worth salvaging?! (There are definitely quite a few characters I love and would like to meet again.)
I think what I might do is read through all my adult stuff and see what I should keep and what can be scrapped. Maybe I’ll find something that didn’t work in one book works well in another. Maybe I can pick my favourite characters from each half-arsed book and stick them all in a book together… But in the meantime, I’m going back to the YA I wrote for NaNo last year.
What do you do when you’re not “feeling” a book? How do you know when to give up?